First Impression as A Senior

Early Morning at My House

First word: GLOOMY. At the first side I don't wanna leave that place but at the other side I really want to leave that place. The tension appeared already this morning when I came to the class room.

And I am afraid that my las year will almost be the same like my senior year at junior high. Yay my weirdest time ever. I didn't have much close friends that time. I was a nerd back then and looks like I'm still that girl. But I've change a little bit too though. I can talk a little better in front of people and I can understand Japanese! Those are the differences.

Well I don't know what is my fault that my friends that I hope to talk to me a lot didn't talk much as I expected. Looks like they're all ganging up and they forget about me. I was there too people! They didn't ask me "Where will you sit Tara?" or "You must sit here beside me!" or else like that. Well hoping for them is not the best then. I wonder how it will go.. My senior year.. With those I didn't expect this morning.. I guess I will fight by my own in that crowded class. Crowded. But so lonely for me. Hah.

Of course I must survive so I can go to university that I hope I can study there. Still expectations are not as beautiful as we hope for. You may fly so high but don't forget to step on the ground. And thinking about the future won't have an ending. Future is about our hopes. Future is about fate. And future has no real end. We don't live at a fairytale. We live as a human in a real life. We are.. Real.

Okay enough for my thoughts. I hope that I can pass the national exam and get through to the university I wish for. I hope that I can through all of these things without falling but rising to the top. And I hope that I can be a strong one who can help the others even they don't help me at all when I'm down.

YES I CAN! YES I CAN PASS THOSE ALL. IT'S ME AGAINST THE WORLD THOUGH :)